之前在B站发现NANA有英语配音版，只是记得了这件事，也知道了一些日本动画有英语配音版，没有立即去看。隔了挺长的时间，为了提高英语听力选择了用英配动画作为素材，否则没有兴趣仅凭自律实在很难坚持。本来是想避开少女恋爱类题材的，但Rebecca Shoichet沙哑有磁性的嗓音吸引了我，把大崎娜娜的形象表现得太迷人了，不会在听过原版的前提下有落差，就以这个有些莫名其妙的理由开始看NANA。影视区没有读书区的笔记栏，就在此记录台词和感想。
1218: E16-E21 1) Why are we never happy with what we have? We always seemed to want more. 2) I felt empty inside. And the only way I thought I could fill that emptiness was by falling in love. 3) When people like their job, they do better work. That′s all the motivation you need. —————— But the thing is, people who feel empty inside might be impossible to "fall in love." They don′t even know what love is, how to love someone and be loved. So do I.
1220: E22-E24 1) But when you fall in love with someone, you want everything from them. It′s only natural to feel that way. (E23 05:05) 2) Real love can only happen when you want the best for the other person and never ask for anything in return. (E23 05:21) 3) The thing is, I know Ren and Hachi don′t belong to me. They are people, not possessions. And it′s totally wrong with me to even let myself think of them like that. People can spend their time together, but ultimately we are all alone. Everyone′s got their own life to live. And I know it′s impossible to make someone mine. But sometimes that realization just makes me feel even more lonely. (E23 12:38) 4) In the end, we are all alone, no matter how hard you try or how close you get. It′s impossible for two people to become as one. I know it′s impossible, but sometimes I really wish that Nana was mine. It′s like I want her all for myself. That way I could just slip her into my jacket pocket and take her with me to live in Tokyo. (E23 15:15) 5) -What′s the one thing I′ve got over Takumi? -You love her. —————— 盼望一个不爱你的人爱上你，是缘木求鱼。
1221 E25-E28 1) Shin, if a man and a woman are just objects of desire to each other, then do you think they could ever be connected by love? (E25 15:50) 2) Hey, Nana. If you and I were lovers, would we be able to fill the emptiness by holding each other? Or, does everyone have to bear this loneliness in their life? It′s not that I want to keep you all to myself, Nana. I just wanted you to need me. (E26 21:08) 3) It doesn′t matter if I don′t find a job that I like. If only I could spend every day with someone I love. That would make me so happy. (E27 8:10)
1223: E29-E30 Back then, I was pursuing my dreams. I achieved a lot of my goals, but along the way, I lost something irreplacable. I lived fast and furious, never looking back with no regrets at all. Now, there′s only one thing I regret. Hey, Hachi. I wonder, are you happy now? (E30 20:58) —————— 虽然NANA里的角色目前我一个都不喜欢，但那些不知为何掉落的眼泪和难以抑制的无语生气，就是这部作品很好的表现吧。 NANA之所以戳中我的泪点和炸点，可能是它把人的寂寞、欲望、软弱刻画得很清晰，但是唯独，我没有看到很美的东西，也没有受到感动。
1224: E31-E32 1) Then tell that to everyone. If you don′t like how Takumi runs them, then go. We have no use for soldiers who aren′t on our side. 2) But I really don′t believe that fate controls who and how we love. I like the thing that people are bound by trust. It doesn′t matter what kind of relationship they are in. 3) Hey, Hachi. I wanted to keep you beside me, even if that meant putting a collar around your neck. I was afraid of myself, you know. And that′s why I always kept a little distance between us. Even now I don′t make friends very easily, ′cause I′m still afraid. —————— 我想这部动画之所以不错，是因为气质和氛围很独特，很生动地塑造了主要人物，把人的内心和人与人之间的关系描绘得很真实，让观众产生了代入和共鸣。但现在的我已无意去共鸣。
1225: E33-E36 1) -But what about love, man? -I′m pretty sure that love will come later. The people I′ve met usually love themselves more than anyone else. So, they end up loving those who best accomodate their own desires at the time. 2) Hey, Hachi. I was like that cheap glass. I was too weak to accept you as you are. It′s just that I preferred the pain of breaking it into pieces and the loneliness I felt from losing everything. I was too fragile. It′s not your fault. 3) It′s just that I′m not in love with her or anything. I can′t help how I feel. 4) But I can′t feel sorry for her. This is the life she chose. 5) Like a moon that′s not quite full. That′s how I am when I′m with Ren, no matter how we love each other. I don′t know. Is there anyone who can fulfill me? But when I′m on stage, that′s when I feel complete. 6) Hey, Hachi. Back then when you kept losing yourself in love, maybe we weren′t that different. We both struggled for the same thing—to feel fulfilled. I can understand some of those feelings you had. It′s just that I couldn′t back then. Is your new life that you protected at all costs still fulfilling you even now? —————— 看NANA就像看《飞跃疯人院》，那些我竭力不想去共情和喜欢的人，就是我厌恶着的自己。比起爱，我想它表达得更好的是人的寂寞、欲望和软弱。**成长的道路上，流过多少眼泪呢？或是从来不哭，只是咬牙向前？还没有做到化茧成蝶的我，等待着那一天，那时候，我会更靠近心爱的自己，还有吸引着我的令我好奇的**。
1227: E37-E41 1) -Damn it. Why should I have to go and see her? It′s not fair. -That′s what heroes do. Don′t you know? (E37 19:54) 2) Hey, Hachi. No matter how much or how often people hurt each other, loving someone is never a waste. That love letter you left for me back then... I still cherish it. (E37 21:03) 3) Being in a band means having to share single destiny. Right now, the people I need to protect aren′t my friends or ex-bandmates. (E39 18:53) 4) I will not let them ruin my life. Just watch me, Hachiko. I promise I′m gonna make all your dreams come true. (E39 20:13) 5) Listen, Ren. Those feelings don′t make you a cold person, okay? It′s just that the longer we go through life, the heavier all the baggage we have becomes. And it gets harder just to do what you want. That′s why you need someone else—to carry that load with you. Don′t you think you and your girlfriend could do that for each other? (E41 15:42) 6) Even when I′m with Ren, I′m lonely inside. (E41 20:16) 7) To cherish something is a difficult thing to do, isn′t it? (E42 12:17) 8) I believe it′s only when you are able to be with someone without a lot of lies and pretence that you could really start to examine yourself. But if you look away, you lose everything. And I don′t want to lose. (E42 12:34) 9) Hey, Hachi. Humans are such hopeless creatures. It seems the harder we struggle, the deeper we sink. If I could be reincarnated, I wanna be a fish. And I would swim with Ren. Just the two of us in our little fishbowl. (E42 21:02) 10) If I die now, I don′t think Ren would die with me anymore. But, that′s good. That′s the way it should be. I must be crazy for thinking it′s sad. (E43 00:19) 11) -But would it make you feel bad if everyone around you is acting normal when you are suffering? -It doesn′t matter if you are around people who are calm or anxious, you′ll be okay as long as you feel their compassion for you. I don′t know about other people, but that′s pretty much how I′d feel. (E43 13:47) 12) Hey, Hachi. I always thought life was like swimming against the current, no matter how strong it was. But going with the flow isn′t such a bad thing after all as long as you are moving forward. (E43 21:03) 13) To be loved by the man I was in love with. That was a miracle for me. I believed it was fate for us to be together. (E44 15:32) —————————— NANA里无数次地提到“love”，但我却总觉得很尴尬。到底什么是爱呢？他们以为的爱、作者以为的爱，是真的爱吗？刚刚我在想，如果我没有认识**，当我看NANA的时候，又会是什么感受呢？她的确塑造了我。
1228: E45-E47 1) I guess we′ve all got to live with the choices we′ve made. (E46 17:22) 2) I think I′m far-sighted. The further away something is, the better I can see it. But once it gets close, I lose sight of it. (E46 20:12) 3) Hey, Hachi. They say you don′t realise how much you care for someone untill after they′re gone. But I think it′s when you come face to face with that person once more that you truly recognize your feelings for them. If I saw everyone again right now, I know that I′d depend on them just as much as I did back then. I′m scared of that. That′s why I can′t move from the spot. (E46 21:05) 4) Avoiding conflict doesn′t mean you′re taking the easy way out. At least that′s what I think. (E47 14:44) —————————— 如果问我喜不喜欢这部作品，我是矛盾的。我看得到它的好，却觉得它不够好。正像我如何看待着自己以及身边的人。若我不喜欢，又怎么会第一次长篇累牍地记录下这么多台词呢？但是，我仍然期待着，更好的、更超越我想象的作品。
