之前在B站發現NANA有英語配音版，只是記得了這件事，也知道了一些日本動畫有英語配音版，沒有立即去看。隔了挺長的時間，為了提高英語聽力選擇了用英配動畫作為素材，否則沒有興趣僅憑自律實在很難堅持。本來是想避開少女戀愛類題材的，但Rebecca Shoichet沙啞有磁性的嗓音吸引了我，把大崎娜娜的形象表現得太迷人了，不會在聽過原版的前提下有落差，就以這個有些莫名其妙的理由開始看NANA。影視區沒有讀書區的筆記欄，就在此記錄臺詞和感想。
1218: E16-E21 1) Why are we never happy with what we have? We always seemed to want more. 2) I felt empty inside. And the only way I thought I could fill that emptiness was by falling in love. 3) When people like their job, they do better work. That′s all the motivation you need. —————— But the thing is, people who feel empty inside might be impossible to "fall in love." They don′t even know what love is, how to love someone and be loved. So do I.
1220: E22-E24 1) But when you fall in love with someone, you want everything from them. It′s only natural to feel that way. (E23 05:05) 2) Real love can only happen when you want the best for the other person and never ask for anything in return. (E23 05:21) 3) The thing is, I know Ren and Hachi don′t belong to me. They are people, not possessions. And it′s totally wrong with me to even let myself think of them like that. People can spend their time together, but ultimately we are all alone. Everyone′s got their own life to live. And I know it′s impossible to make someone mine. But sometimes that realization just makes me feel even more lonely. (E23 12:38) 4) In the end, we are all alone, no matter how hard you try or how close you get. It′s impossible for two people to become as one. I know it′s impossible, but sometimes I really wish that Nana was mine. It′s like I want her all for myself. That way I could just slip her into my jacket pocket and take her with me to live in Tokyo. (E23 15:15) 5) -What′s the one thing I′ve got over Takumi? -You love her. —————— 盼望一個不愛你的人愛上你，是緣木求魚。
1221 E25-E28 1) Shin, if a man and a woman are just objects of desire to each other, then do you think they could ever be connected by love? (E25 15:50) 2) Hey, Nana. If you and I were lovers, would we be able to fill the emptiness by holding each other? Or, does everyone have to bear this loneliness in their life? It′s not that I want to keep you all to myself, Nana. I just wanted you to need me. (E26 21:08) 3) It doesn′t matter if I don′t find a job that I like. If only I could spend every day with someone I love. That would make me so happy. (E27 8:10)
1223: E29-E30 Back then, I was pursuing my dreams. I achieved a lot of my goals, but along the way, I lost something irreplacable. I lived fast and furious, never looking back with no regrets at all. Now, there′s only one thing I regret. Hey, Hachi. I wonder, are you happy now? (E30 20:58) —————— 雖然NANA裡的角色目前我一個都不喜歡，但那些不知為何掉落的眼淚和難以抑制的無語生氣，就是這部作品很好的表現吧。 NANA之所以戳中我的淚點和炸點，可能是它把人的寂寞、慾望、軟弱刻畫得很清晰，但是唯獨，我沒有看到很美的東西，也沒有受到感動。
1224: E31-E32 1) Then tell that to everyone. If you don′t like how Takumi runs them, then go. We have no use for soldiers who aren′t on our side. 2) But I really don′t believe that fate controls who and how we love. I like the thing that people are bound by trust. It doesn′t matter what kind of relationship they are in. 3) Hey, Hachi. I wanted to keep you beside me, even if that meant putting a collar around your neck. I was afraid of myself, you know. And that′s why I always kept a little distance between us. Even now I don′t make friends very easily, ′cause I′m still afraid. —————— 我想這部動畫之所以不錯，是因為氣質和氛圍很獨特，很生動地塑造了主要人物，把人的內心和人與人之間的關係描繪得很真實，讓觀眾產生了代入和共鳴。但現在的我已無意去共鳴。
1225: E33-E36 1) -But what about love, man? -I′m pretty sure that love will come later. The people I′ve met usually love themselves more than anyone else. So, they end up loving those who best accomodate their own desires at the time. 2) Hey, Hachi. I was like that cheap glass. I was too weak to accept you as you are. It′s just that I preferred the pain of breaking it into pieces and the loneliness I felt from losing everything. I was too fragile. It′s not your fault. 3) It′s just that I′m not in love with her or anything. I can′t help how I feel. 4) But I can′t feel sorry for her. This is the life she chose. 5) Like a moon that′s not quite full. That′s how I am when I′m with Ren, no matter how we love each other. I don′t know. Is there anyone who can fulfill me? But when I′m on stage, that′s when I feel complete. 6) Hey, Hachi. Back then when you kept losing yourself in love, maybe we weren′t that different. We both struggled for the same thing—to feel fulfilled. I can understand some of those feelings you had. It′s just that I couldn′t back then. Is your new life that you protected at all costs still fulfilling you even now? —————— 看NANA就像看《飛躍瘋人院》，那些我竭力不想去共情和喜歡的人，就是我厭惡著的自己。比起愛，我想它表達得更好的是人的寂寞、慾望和軟弱。**成長的道路上，流過多少眼淚呢？或是從來不哭，只是咬牙向前？還沒有做到化繭成蝶的我，等待著那一天，那時候，我會更靠近心愛的自己，還有吸引著我的令我好奇的**。
1227: E37-E41 1) -Damn it. Why should I have to go and see her? It′s not fair. -That′s what heroes do. Don′t you know? (E37 19:54) 2) Hey, Hachi. No matter how much or how often people hurt each other, loving someone is never a waste. That love letter you left for me back then... I still cherish it. (E37 21:03) 3) Being in a band means having to share single destiny. Right now, the people I need to protect aren′t my friends or ex-bandmates. (E39 18:53) 4) I will not let them ruin my life. Just watch me, Hachiko. I promise I′m gonna make all your dreams come true. (E39 20:13) 5) Listen, Ren. Those feelings don′t make you a cold person, okay? It′s just that the longer we go through life, the heavier all the baggage we have becomes. And it gets harder just to do what you want. That′s why you need someone else—to carry that load with you. Don′t you think you and your girlfriend could do that for each other? (E41 15:42) 6) Even when I′m with Ren, I′m lonely inside. (E41 20:16) 7) To cherish something is a difficult thing to do, isn′t it? (E42 12:17) 8) I believe it′s only when you are able to be with someone without a lot of lies and pretence that you could really start to examine yourself. But if you look away, you lose everything. And I don′t want to lose. (E42 12:34) 9) Hey, Hachi. Humans are such hopeless creatures. It seems the harder we struggle, the deeper we sink. If I could be reincarnated, I wanna be a fish. And I would swim with Ren. Just the two of us in our little fishbowl. (E42 21:02) 10) If I die now, I don′t think Ren would die with me anymore. But, that′s good. That′s the way it should be. I must be crazy for thinking it′s sad. (E43 00:19) 11) -But would it make you feel bad if everyone around you is acting normal when you are suffering? -It doesn′t matter if you are around people who are calm or anxious, you′ll be okay as long as you feel their compassion for you. I don′t know about other people, but that′s pretty much how I′d feel. (E43 13:47) 12) Hey, Hachi. I always thought life was like swimming against the current, no matter how strong it was. But going with the flow isn′t such a bad thing after all as long as you are moving forward. (E43 21:03) 13) To be loved by the man I was in love with. That was a miracle for me. I believed it was fate for us to be together. (E44 15:32) —————————— NANA裡無數次地提到“love”，但我卻總覺得很尷尬。到底什麼是愛呢？他們以為的愛、作者以為的愛，是真的愛嗎？剛剛我在想，如果我沒有認識**，當我看NANA的時候，又會是什麼感受呢？她的確塑造了我。
1228: E45-E47 1) I guess we′ve all got to live with the choices we′ve made. (E46 17:22) 2) I think I′m far-sighted. The further away something is, the better I can see it. But once it gets close, I lose sight of it. (E46 20:12) 3) Hey, Hachi. They say you don′t realise how much you care for someone untill after they′re gone. But I think it′s when you come face to face with that person once more that you truly recognize your feelings for them. If I saw everyone again right now, I know that I′d depend on them just as much as I did back then. I′m scared of that. That′s why I can′t move from the spot. (E46 21:05) 4) Avoiding conflict doesn′t mean you′re taking the easy way out. At least that′s what I think. (E47 14:44) —————————— 如果問我喜不喜歡這部作品，我是矛盾的。我看得到它的好，卻覺得它不夠好。正像我如何看待著自己以及身邊的人。若我不喜歡，又怎麼會第一次長篇累牘地記錄下這麼多臺詞呢？但是，我仍然期待著，更好的、更超越我想象的作品。
